Purple Life.

My study

Tuesday, November 06, 2018 - Purple - 0 Comments

Sometimes we need to distance ourselves from all ppl around us. It's natural behavior bcs when we need time for ourselves to think alone, we don't want anybody beside us. Lately, I'm feeling tht I like to be alone by myself. Idk why... But, the feeling when you are alone by yourself are so nice, so calm. And all I need is peace! I want and always want to be in peace forever without any problems. But, I know it's ~~impossible.~~ And lately ni jugak, aku ada byk assignment. Byk gila! Aku stress! This sem makes me ~~wanna end my study~~, you know tht? Nasib lah aku ni jenis fikir parents. Hmmm I don't wanna be in the same grade anymore. But, Idk how to change my grades. I want to show to my parents that I can do it! But, sometimes it's seem ~~so impossible.~~ I want my parents to see my hardworking, my effort. But, aku tak nampak mana. Aku sendiri tak nampak benda tu. So, how my parents nak nampak? Idk how I can achieve my target... It's so hard when I try to think about it. Kata - kata memang senang... tapi, nak buat tu. Nauzubillah, susah. Sometimes I want to know how my future will be? What will happen to me in future? what? I need Allah's help. I really - really need it. And I want to get married after I've achieve all of my target and dreams. I really hope that I can face this. I can finish my study. I can hold my degree. I can prove it to my parents that I can do it.... InshaAllah. If Allah will it.

I'm Back!

Sunday, October 28, 2018 - Purple - 0 Comments

Hye, Assalamualaikum! Yeay! I'm back! After a long time not opening this blog. Here today, I open it again. The last I wrote on this blog is after I'm finished my secondary school. Oh my god, 3 years ago. And I never thought that I will comeback to this blog. This blog is already 9 years. And most of the story, ~~I've already delete it and revert to draft.~~ I just want that story to remain with me and decided not to share it with ppl. Hahaha ~~old stories.~~ So, ermmm I think it's better not to think about it again. This blog is witness to all of my story dari umur 12 tahun sampai 17 tahun. Hahaha lama en ? Yes, I'm live with it. But, in the last 2015, I've decided to stop write my life story. It's bcs I'm already busy with my studies. My matrics and now, my college life. And today, I re-edited back my blog. So, this is my new blog! This is my new story! This is my new life! So, I like to start it back! Now, I'm studying at UniMAP, Perlis. Hmmm, there are nothing's here. But, I like the environment here. Bcs, it's so peaceful. And I like peace. I'm study in business engineering. This course I've never thought that I'll take it. I'll learn it. Bcs, ~~I never like business.~~ Hahaha like business are not my thing lah. But, kau study pun ermmm haih tak tau lah. I love science. But, jodoh bkn dengan science kan ? So, accept je lah. I've put my trust on Allah that I know He knows the best for me. But, ermmm tak minat business camne nk study ? Nah... now I'm just follow the flow. It's only this course that I've got to further my study. So, yeah I just grab it bcs I want to further my study. But, business is so hard meyh! I don't want to work yet. But, this course are really tough actually. So, I need to be a hardworking girl to achieve my target. Okay, so that's it. I'll continue later. But, just wanna tell that I'M BACK!

My Trial

Wednesday, September 30, 2015 - Purple - 0 Comments

Assalamualaikum ... orrite . I wanna share something yg sgt perit untuk diterima. My bio marks turun 11 markah . Can u imagine 11 markah !! 11 okay ?! Bukan sikit ! And yass . I hate it . Yelahh , dgn cikgu tak bagi kertas ... if cikgu tak bg krtas ...mcm mne nk tau ap yg salah, ap yg betul ?? Ntah2 die kire salah ke ?? Yass ... I still cannot accept the reality . Dari boleh lahh okay i dpt A tu ... turun dapat B . B weyh !! 😭 Mcm mana I nak bgtahu parents I ?? Mcm mana ?? MEMANG !! MEMANG TRIAL NI TAK EFFECT APA2 . BUT !! TRIAL NI MNUNJUKKAN SEJAUH MANA USAHA KAU !! Yelahhh, ayat penyedap hatii . Takpe, u still ad mase . SPM nanti ada lagii . Yass !! Ayat tu i slalu guna for myself even for my friends . But, if u think rationally ... u still cant accept why u get result yg mcm tu ... Memang ayat tu i slalu guna untuk naikkan smangat kwn2 . Tp, I know actually kata2 tu tk membantu langsung cause I feel it . Okay lah, result I truk . Not so truk . But, tkde peningkatan from midyear . U KNOW ??? Tkde peningkatan . I wonder ... did Im not study at all ?? Did I dont have any effort ?? Idk . Im so so so sad right now . So, to anyone yg dpt A byk ... korang memang hebat . Congrates, guys ! 😉 And to anyone yg tk dpt A byk or tkde A tu ... hmmm same2 lahh muhasabah diri . I will try to think positive . Maybe Allah tk nak I rase selesa dpt A byk2 . Sbb Dia tahu and kenal setiap hamba2nya . Maybe Allah nk I tingkatkan lagi usaha ... Maybe Allah nk I lebih tabah lagi . And Allah always knows the best for u . So, dont give up ... and think it positive, Hani ... Think it positive ... Ya Allah ... tabahkan lah aku untuk terima segala ketentuan dan takdirMu .. dan jadikanlah aku, bantulah aku untuk menjadi yang lebih baik . Amin ... I tak mntak sesuatu itu kelihatan sempurna ... tapi, biarlah ia terlihat lebih baik dari sebelumnya . And I still dont know how am I going to tell my father about this . Cause I already tell my father about my result that better than my result now . Hmmm . Bye !

My Birthday 😚

Saturday, July 11, 2015 - Purple - 0 Comments

Alright ! This is my birthday present from my bestfriends 😘 . Hahaha this is the best birthday I ever had with all my bestfriend . Hello Kitty . U know why its Hello Kitty ? Because I dont like Hello Kitty . So, for my birthday they gave me things that I dont like . Kiranya , diorang tukar taste skali ni ... diorang bg hadiah yg birthday girl tu tak suka . Ha !! So, for my birthday, dorang bagi bende yg Hani tak suka . Amek kau !! Hahaha 😄 Btw, I dont like Hello Kitty cause Hello Kitty melambangkan warna pink . Thats why I dont like it . But, Im the person that like a cute things . So, its okay . And I dont care about the present cause I really love it . What I care about is their wish . Im crying while I read it . Their wishes are so beautiful . Arghh !! I really miss u guys . I really miss this moments . Can we be like this again after what happened to our group ? Can we ? Im sorry guys ... Im really sorry if I ever hurt you guys . I really dont mean it . Cause u guys are the best ever friends that I ever had . I dont want to lose u all .

Okay , until here I write this .

Bye ! Assalamualaikum . 😉

Something Precious 😰

Thursday, July 09, 2015 - Purple - 0 Comments

Assalamualaikum and hye !!! Long time no see ma !!! Hehehe ... miss u 😘 Btw, act today I wanna share a story . Friendship story . U guys , I want u to know that I really love u guys . I want us to be like this forever . Always care each other . Always love each other . But, why I feel like .. we are .. Arghh , just let it go . Forget about that . Guys, I never ever have a friendship like this . I mean like .. friendship yg ramai2 camni .. Korang, I dont know why .. I feel so sad when we are being like this . I love this friendship . And I want to take care of it . Cause this is the best friendship I ever had . Alaaa .. sedihnye . I feel uneasy when u guys being like this .. but, I believe everything that happen to us, have its reason and hikmah .. so, I just accept it . Guys, do u even know that I really truly happy have u guys in my life ? Do u even know that ? Im sorry if Im to selfish .. Im sorry if I did not share anything with u guys . Cause, sometimes we need someone that we really close . And yes .. I terasa dgn salah seorang or salah dua org dari u guys . But, I will not let it out . Cause I know who I am . Seriously talk, Im very sad right now . I feel like I want my school life end right now . Please, cepat lahhh SPM . Im sorry u guys ... but, Im really sad until I cant calm myself . I wanna end it here . Guys, finally I know, rainbow is not always be beautiful. It also can turn to the other side. Im sorry ... 😖 But, I truly happy to have u guys in my life . And Im sorry for what happen to us . I miss our best moments . I want us to be like that again, my love . I want that ... can we ? But, when this all happen, it makes me open my eyes widely . And yes ! What my cousin said was true . I never expect that we will become like this . Seriously ... I never expect this will happen . But, I know ... Allah test us, right ?? He want us to be strong for our friendship ... 😊 so, Insyaallah ... if Allah wills it ... we will be friends until Jannah my sayangs . 😘 Alright, until here I share it with u guys . So, nite ! Sorry for my broken english . 😌

Pelangi 😶

Tuesday, April 28, 2015 - Purple - 0 Comments

haiii , hmmm nk story sket lahh . Lama tak berblogger . Haihhh byk prkara yang langsung tak menyenangkan hati akhir2 ni . Kenapa ek ? Ujian buat aku ke ?? Aku lemahh ... lemahh sangat nk hadapi apa yang berlaku dalam hidup . Sabar aku ada had ... ujian yang aku dpt kenapa terasa susah nak dijalani ?? Aku tahuu ujian itu drpd Allah . Aku tahu Allah takkan bagi ujian kalau kite tk mampu jalani ujian tu ... Kerana Allah itu sayang akan hamba2 nye . Aku tahu . Tahu sangat . Tapi , terkadang terasa susah sangat nak terima . Aku dah mula berubah sikit demi sikit . Dah lah tadi kene marah dgn ckgu smpi markah aku pon boleh low . Ckgu yang aku puji melambung gila2 tapi, ini yang aku dpt ?? Aku sendiri tak tahu kenapa aku kecewa sangat2 . Sangat2 . Dan sangat2 . Hmmm, mungkin sbb aku trlampauu suke and tabik kot dgn ckgu tuuu . Bile die buat camtu aku hmmmm . Mmg salah aku ... sbb nervous sgt time tu smpi lost semua bende . Tapi, at least bagi lah aku peluang untuk repeat balik . Ni soal masa depan aku ... lain lahh kalau markah tu tak masuk SPM ... Haihhh . Aku tak faham betul lahh . Aku skang cepat sangat tacing . Cepat sangat marah . Aku pon tak tahu ... terkadang aku berharap hidup aku cepat berakhir . Tapi , aku tahu .. amalan aku masih tak cukup untuk bawa aku ke syurga Allah . Ya Allah ... sakitnye hati . Akankah ada kebahagiaan buat ku selepas ini ?? Akankah ?? Ya Allah ... bantulah aku, Ya Allah ... tabahkanlahh hati aku untuk menjalani semua ni ... Sebab aku tahu aku lemahh . Aku manusia yang lemah . Sangat lemah dan mengharapkan pertolonganMu ... tiada yang lain selain dariMu, Ya Allah . HambaMu yang hina ini perlukanMu, Ya Allah . Bantulah aku untuk kecapi kejayaan di dunia mahupun di akhirat kelak . Lega jugak akhirnya ... walaupun dapat luahkan hanya di blog pon sudah memadai kerana tiada siapa yang ingin mendengar kecuali Allah . Orrite, bye !

BaCk t0 ScH0oL :)

Monday, January 12, 2015 - Purple - 2 Comments

Hey Hay !

Orrite , how are u , stalkers ?

Hehehe ...

Today is the first day school :)

Alhamdulillah , I'm still in Akik's

Best jugak lah kelas baru ni .

Satu geng semua satu kelas kecuali Dibah .

Sokayh , Dibah ! Even lain kelas pon , kite tetap sama-sama :D

Hahahaha gedik ceq na !

Hmmmm , I don't know what to say .

Cause ... I don't know .

Hahahahaha :D

It's funny , rite ?

Aduh ! Ape pulak lah yg aku merepek ni .

Okayh lah ! Tu je kot .

Bye !

Assalamualaikum :*

My Lovey Dovey

I Love Them !

This is Nur Syazlin . Hahaha :D She's the one that I close now from form 2 . She's from my kindergarten friend. But, we're not very close. Thanks, Alin . Thank u so much . U never ever leave me alone . I'll not forget u :)

This is Nurul Khalis or Elis Mahzan or ALice in Wonderland . She's my friend that I'm very very close . She's the one that change me from the bad one to a good one. Thank u so much because u always try to change me. And know that u did change me so much! <3

Orrite ! This is Aeisyah Amirah . Cheerful girl . She's a good advisor . Hahaha ... Love u so muchyyy !

In the end of year 2013, I met all this girl and I'm started to be close with them . The girls that always have each other when the one of them is in a difficult time . The girls that makes me wanna build a friendship with them . The girls that always makes me miss my friendship in the past . The girls that makes me proud of the friendship that they have . Yes, I'm proud of u guys .

In year 2014 . We became really2 close . In this year, we have a lot of sad memories . One-by-one leave us to the boarding school . First, Atikah . Then, Dina and Elis . After that, Jannah . We really miss all of them . From 12 girls in a group . Now, we just have 8 girls in a group . This is what called fate . No one can prevent it . But, now we are back again.

This is a picture of us during our holiday in Langkawi . Missed this moment so much . We shared stories together . From the stories I know that we all have a sad things in our lives . I'm very grateful I have u guys for express my feelings, for being crazy together and many more .

Finally, I wanna tell u guys that I'm very grateful to have u guys as my friends . I'll never ever forget all of ur kindness . I'm sorry if I have hurt u guys . Thank u cause u guys want to be my friends . Thanks guys :)